So much of my time is spent trying to decide what to do.
How’s my brain today?
How’s my pain today?
Can I walk without my hip popping out of joint?
Do I have words to say or an empty brain space to fill?
How is my mood?
Do I hate everyone or can I tolerate some conversation?
Do I have errands?
Do I care that I have errands?
I’ve spent so much time and effort assessing my status that I just go lay back down.
And then, when I’m not so tired, I do the whole thing over again.
Even thinking about doing stuff is exhausting.
I’m too tired today.